Don't you just LOVE those people you think are your friends who go and backstab you and hurt you? Yeah, I just lost another friend...

One of my "best friends" randomly decided recently to cut off all communication with me. I searched for her and when I thought I found her, I found out it wasn't her. But, turns out it was her. She just lied to me. Then she told one of our friends to lie for her to me.

Like seriously, what the hell? She went to a different school and according to our friend, she "wanted to be left alone" and "none of the people from her old school cared for her." Another what the hell thing. I cared for her. She was one of my best friends. I really thought she was my friend too. But apparently not.

So yeah, I'm like really depressed right now about it. I'm happy I at least have some people who I know are real friends. I couldn't stop crying about it earlier.

People suck. You can never really be too sure who is really your friend or not. And it really hurts when you lose a friend... I've lost way too many in life... I've lost pretty much everyone I've ever loved, in one way or another. Backstabbing friends, deaths, racist people, cliques, trends, rumors, tons of things... My oldest friend I have from childhood is my cat. And the oldest friend I have that is a human is my friend from 2nd grade. And I barely speak to her anymore. I lost all of my first friends in life. I'm just... I'm done with it. I wish I could just forget about other people and be alone for forever sometimes...

Sorry for my little ramble. I just needed to type out my feelings. I'm having some friends come over to cheer me up soon so I'll be good in about a week. :]

Merry Christmas! <3

Not much to update. Just have to say I may or may not draw something for Christmas and post it on Christmas. I'm working on 3 stories that I may or may not post. I'm not promising anything. XD

The first story is an Inuyasha fanfic. I have about 5 chapters to post, but I can't think of a title for the fanfic. So it'll have to wait.

The next is a random crossover fanfic featuring Inuyasha, Labyrinth, and Repo! The Genetic Opera. I just started it though, so I might not post it for a while.

The last is a Twilight fanfic that a friend asked me to write. I haven't started it yet, so I don't know whether I'll post it at all or not.

Anyway, that's all I really had to say. Happy Holidays to all, and Happy New Years! I'll see you in 2010!

<3 ~**Air-Siren-Satsuki**~ <3

So at my school today, they decided to have what's called "Fun day" where they take us on a trip somewhere and they expect it to be fun. We saw a movie and went to a park, then had ice cream and got to miss 3 classes of our normal school day. Sounds fun, right?

The movie was a kid's movie. And I didn't like it. I listened to music the entire time because I hated it. Then we went to the park and one of my best friends ignored me and hung out with her other friends. Not just for while we were at the park, but for the whole day. God I wanted to shoot someone. Dogs kept trying to get me to pet them, and I kept texting people to ease my loneliness.

Then on top of that, the school served ice cream. I'm lactose intolerant. I get sick when I eat ice cream. I was so pissed about that. I mean, why serve something to everyone that you know not everyone can eat?

But my day did get better at some points.

The movie gave me a chance to sleep a bit. It was nice. And on the way back to school, I got to talk to my favorite teacher for a while. I don't talk much to him anymore because he's not my teacher anymore. He was my teacher last year.

When they gave out ice cream, said teacher gave me candy because he felt bad. I wanted to hug him. Not many teachers would do that for a student. I'm his favorite. Even though I'm not his student anymore. XD Then I talked to him for a good 10 minutes after school, and all I wanted was to thank him for the candy. XD

I was happy to know someone cared about my loneliness, my lactose intolerance, and my boredom with the whole day. At first, I never wanted another fun day again, but now that I realized I get to hang out with my favorite teacher, maybe the fun day won't be so bad. XD

Just trying out the new free journal skins. So haha, don't pay attention to this. XD

So, my Halloween weekend was fun. Halloween's the best night of the year, and I had lots of fun spending it with one of my best friends and another friend.

My friend Nicole stayed over almost the whole weekend. Together, we made tons of snacks. We made a cookie pizza, cupcakes, actual pizza, fries, and got tons of candy from my mom. My other friend Melissa came over just for Halloween. She got to eat some of the treats and got tons of candy as well. We carved an adorable pumpkin, which I'll put pictures of up soon. I handed out candy to neighborhood kids for the first time in my life, and overall we had tons of fun. My parents and brother had left for the night so we were all alone and having an awesome time, even though we got paranoid a lot. XD We watched a ton of movies from the John Carpenter's Halloween series, and we watched Silence Of The Lambs. We had a few good scares from my brother, and lit tons of candles, stayed up all night, and fell asleep watching The Shining.

Sunday night, they both went home and I had a big mess to clean. My mom took me to Walgreens and we bought a ton of Halloween stuff, 75% off. She got me fake nails, two wigs, a rubber bat, a rubber spider, two pretty wine glasses, and lots of other cool stuff. I went home and watched more horror movies and ate some of the cupcakes we had made. Or the lawl cakes, as Nicole calls them. (We wrote lol on them since some people say lawl, and Nicole says lawl cakes when she's making fun of something.)

However, Monday morning, as I was getting ready for school, I was curling some of my hair and burnt my forehead. God it hurt. I had to keep ice on it for an hour. Now I have a small burn mark on my forehead. But no one bothers me about it, so I guess it'll be ok as long as I don't pick at it.

Today nothing much happened, but I realized my friend Nicole gave me her cold. She's been sick for weeks and when I'm close to her for long periods of time, I get a touch of it. I have a really sore throat right now. Only really because I shared my bed with her all weekend. Oh well, I'll live.

November has started off bad for me. October rocked, even when my mother lost her car keys. But November, I'm burning myself and getting sick... Great way to start off a month, huh? XD